Sing Dance and Smile

The year has started and so much is in store for me. I am working on a big project right now and it’s driving me crazy but I’m not complaining. All in good faith, right. 

I really dunno what this. I think that’s its more like a series of thoughts that just fit together. Well this is what came out.

Stop no I can’t breathe… Every line and syllable is a year, a decade An eternal bliss of pain and agony.

“C’mon lil buddy be real”

I claim to save the world yet I dunno how to save myself Smiles that only serve as bandaids hoping To make up for the pain and scars of thousands of everlasting wounds

I still yearn to find the authenticity of my chilhood and the innocence of my laughter. Yet all I find are the stains of my tears that I only have my existence to blame

So right now it’s 1:22am and I have to be up in like three hours yet I can’t sleep. There’s a lot happening in my mind right now. Well first off, I’m going to Memphis (first time visiting) to take part of an awesome training, I’m super stoked about that. 

When I get back to Minneapolis, I just want to hang out with people and just live. I think that I’m finally starting to live for Richard and not for others’ expectations. I can’t wait to go back to school and start dancing again. Ugh how I love being a dance major I’m just eager to get into a studio and start playing with movement. Well I think this all the ranting I need for tonight since I’m really tired but I promised Keki (you know who you are) that I will start posting more often. So I will.

I haven’t posted anything in a long time. Let’s see where am I write now….

Well Richard is currently sitting on the couch in his lovely summer house in St.Paul. This summer/internship is coming to an end in only two weeks. It has been such an amazing experience. I’m participating in St.Olaf’s program called Leaders for Social Change and the conversations around social change are interesting. 

Well this is just a preview for what really needs to be written

Yes many people have asked if I was getting a memoir published and the answer is yes! Right now I’m working on the manuscript and when I start school in the fall I will begin to edit the memoir. It is called Sing Dance and Smile like the blog. I’m very thrilled for this project but it is definitely time consuming and sometimes frustrating but I don’t mind whatsoever. I’m looking forward to seeing how this project turns out. I will try to post regularly on the blog

So Spring Break is just finishing! Had a great time with Candice, Morgan, Brynn, Erin, Brett, Clay, and Ben (yes! I had to include all of their names). We spent a lovely week in South Carolina and went to the beach almost everyday of that week. It was fun. I know I was supposed to be having fun but instead I was working hard and thinking about the organizing I do with LGBTQ youth. And this is what I thought about:

I really feel like the stereotypes of our community are hurting LGBTQ youth! You hear of youth who hate being LGBTQ because they feel that they don’t fit in with our community. Like I have always said I’m all for marriage equality, but I just find the well-being and healthy mental development of LGBTQ youth should be the priority of the LGBTQ movement. I was diagnosed with depression and attempted suicide twice, but I was lucky enough to survive and move on. I want to create a space for youth, a space where they can come in and feel safe. I dunno where my vision is going to take me but this is something that I think is very important. i want to also create a curriculum for youth. The idea is intervention through empowerment. 

I’m open to ideas/suggestions/comments. 

Peace and blessings!

So I guess this is now the beginning to my blog. Dunno really what I’m going to be posting on this, I think its mainly going to be doodles of my daily life, I seem to doodle all of the time.

I decided to call the blog “singdancesmile” because I really enjoy the simplicity of the words yet they’re so complex and come in different forms and  mean so much. It’s really late right now and I’m not really sure what I will continue to write here but I’m going to let my thoughts dance around and hopefully they’ll smile when its time for them to sing the songs of endless stories